Photoshoot Tea 💝

It's so interesting how we're the new adults and our parents are becoming the elders. I'm not gonna lie, it's heartbreaking to see. I never thought about the days I'd witness my parents growing older, I'm always so focused on how fast time is going by in my own life... I'm realizing how fast it's going in my parent's lives too.

I've been realizing a lot about everything 🙄 time just keeps moving and you literally have to move with it or the next thing you know, 5 years have gone by and all you have to show for it is "should've, would've, could've". I really believe becoming uncomfortable for growth is one of the groundings of success. I never want to live my life regretting anything.. so becoming comfortable being uncomfortable is my motto right now. Hell, honestly as long as I look good I can accomplish and get through anything. That's why this hair is about to get done this weekend! 

I'll literally feel like it's the end of the world - go get my hair, nails, and toes done- and no one can tell me a thinggg 😂

Which is why I have to always look like a bad bitch when I leave the house. I have to look put together, especially while I'm at work lol. One of my coworkers actually calls me Barbie & I loveee it - that brings me to my 30th photoshoot and birthday celebrations 🥰 I have such a cute idea for my photoshoot. I've shown the women I'm closest to, and they all agree it screams BRIYA 💕 I'm so excited! 

For my celebration, I really think I want to be alone. I just know for a fact I'll enjoy my birthday if I'm alone. People are so iffy, and honestly if someone was to ruin my day I might just ruin their life.. so to save every one's time and energy, I really prefer to have a lowkey luxury getaway in my favorite city. I might invite my favorite 🥷for literally one night 😭 but for the most part I really want to be alone - mostly because I just know I'll be crying at midnight. I always cry on my birthday, but I know I'm gonna be boohoo'in because LAWDDD my 20's almost took me tf out of here and they're not over .. this decade is definitely going out with a bang, so yeah I want a calm transition into my 30's.

I might have different celebrations in different cities throughout Virgo season.. maybe a new country.. hmmm 🤔 

It's so crazy how being let down forces you to either have a bitter outlook on life, or literally love yourself so much your standards raise. I refuse to allow myself to settle for certain situations and people, because I love myself too much. Once you put all that love, effort, and energy you were giving to people (platonic and romantic) into yourself, you literally elevate to a new level and radiate on a higher frequency. I love how I walk into a room and people literally turn their heads. I used to be really self conscious about that, but I had to realize I'm fine as hell 🤷🏽‍♀️ and I walk with confidence.. baby I would stare too. Putting extra time and energy into yourself also attracts people on the same level. 

Back to my photoshoot - I have two super cute looks in mind and I need a fire photographer and MUA on set in either Atlanta or Augusta.. I'm thinking Atlanta. Y'all I cannot waittt I need it to look a certain way so the people I choose have to be on their shit and take their crafts seriously, because this is literally my 30th birthday we're talking about 🤌🏽

I'm entering my prime. 💖

 

PMDD, my AncestryDNA results, and moreee 💋

Whew chileee...

I's been an interesting couple of weeks. I'm officially getting settled into my new position, I love it for the most part - very different from anything else I've ever done, but I actually do enjoy what I do. It's just being around and dealing with different personalities... THAT'S what I'm getting used to. Nonetheless I haven't had any issues.

In 2021, I was diagnosed with PMDD (Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder), which was sort of a relief for me because originally I was diagnosed with a more severe mood disorder - but my doctor did some analyzing and tests and it turns out my "episodes" would happen literally right before or during my period. I was prescribed antidepressants, which I don't take anymore - but they personally never helped me anyway. It took some time and therapy to realize what would actually work for me. I started drinking raspberry leaf, peach, and ginger teas around that time of the month and it helped tremendously. I also pay extra attention to my self care. I have my spa days during that time, I paint, I do my rituals (especially if the moon is in significant phases of my chart), I do my monthly skin care routines, and really just make sure I tend to myself as if I'm the Queen of the world because if I don't... life is just terrible for me lol, and I swear I'm not being dramatic. My moods can be scary, one day I'll share with y'all what happened to me during a time I wasn't aware of my PMDD. One of the symptoms are being fog brained or scatterbrained during that time, and baby that has been my mood for the past week OMG .. I can be really ditzy sometimes 😂 and it's really because of this. I'm so glad it's pretty much over for the month, I swear my hair turns blonde for like a week per month. I really feel like this disorder should be talked about more, because it can also be really dangerous leading to depression and suicidal thoughts.

Let's chat about my AncestryDNA™ experience and results 💚

I'm a Naija galll and I'm so happy. I always knew 😭 but no seriously when I FINALLY got my results, I was smiling so hard. Ever since I was a child, people always assumed I was biracial or multiracial, and I've been wanting to get this done for a while - I'm glad I finally did it. So, NO I'm not biracial unless you count the lil 8% white I have. I'm actually kind of excited to have Wales ancestry too because idk... reading up on it and peeping the scenery gave me Game of Thrones vibes 😂 I just feel like it's sort of royal, but to me Nigeria screams royalty, so I'm just extra excited 😍

If you're interested in getting your Ancestry results, just prepare yourself not only for the wait... it took about 2 months for the whole process (buying the kit, doing your sample, sending it back, them receiving it, analyzing it, and uploading results), but for the family tea you may come across. You may find some skeletons in the closet, just be prepared for anything because I was actually very surprised by what I found out. 

Okay I just got off work and I'm literally so tired.. so I'll end it here 💞 I hope y'all have a beautiful rest of your week.